Feel that throb in my mind. I'm filled to the brim with Red Cross and the EOYs. Stress is great. YEAH STRESS! I'm living deliberately. I'm living with groove. I'm living with a purpose and I'm living for you. I'm living. I'm leaving. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I'm not living for you. I'm living because of them. They gave me the things you've never given me. And I love them for that. I love you my NCOs. I really do.
:]
And Thoreau said, "most men lead lives of quiet desperation."
I nodded.
"I know."
And I freaking abhor you.
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Red Bean Soup
this was posted on September 15, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
This is a happy post so don't kill yourself.
In my search for the ultimate brain food, I gouged myself with raisins, fish, fish oils, carrots and a variety of other really bland food. Do they help? Well the raisins do. But there must be something better. My latest experiment came recommended by some really smart people(don't ego) so hopefully it works.
Wow...It has been more than ten years since I've last tasted the horrible concoction. Sheesh. Here's an account of my erm experiment. Wish me luck :P
I try to pull the plastic cover off. It's stuck. Oh it's open. It smells like the fatty meat soup thing. It tastes sweet. Very sweet but I suppose it does help in overnight studying. Especially if it's hot. The soup soaks my mouth leaving a well, red bean-ish aftertaste. There's only soup and mashed red beans when I scoop a spoonful. Of course. What else was I expecting? : /
It's not that bad after awhile.
And I feel more refreshed.
And prepared to tackle the EOYs.
Woohoo!
In my search for the ultimate brain food, I gouged myself with raisins, fish, fish oils, carrots and a variety of other really bland food. Do they help? Well the raisins do. But there must be something better. My latest experiment came recommended by some really smart people(don't ego) so hopefully it works.
Wow...It has been more than ten years since I've last tasted the horrible concoction. Sheesh. Here's an account of my erm experiment. Wish me luck :P
I try to pull the plastic cover off. It's stuck. Oh it's open. It smells like the fatty meat soup thing. It tastes sweet. Very sweet but I suppose it does help in overnight studying. Especially if it's hot. The soup soaks my mouth leaving a well, red bean-ish aftertaste. There's only soup and mashed red beans when I scoop a spoonful. Of course. What else was I expecting? : /
It's not that bad after awhile.
And I feel more refreshed.
And prepared to tackle the EOYs.
Woohoo!
Dead Poets' Society
this was posted on September 14, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
That's going to be a habit.
Ah. They keep quoting poetry. And I recognise them! :D My efforts are paying off. They are! :D
I feel like I really know what I should do and where I will go. It's not often you get a feeling like this. I'm on the right path. I can do this. I can do this!
And I can do it without you.
Ha.
Stuffing your ears and singing out loud.
I LOVE IT.
Stuffing your ears and singing out loud.
I LOVE IT.
Bland
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Oh joy. My uber post got deleted.
Welcome to The Infallible Rule. It has the same background, the same fonts, the tag board, the same playlist but it won't have the same shit. The person writing this won't be the same either because she has come to a revelation. She has been passing life thinking that people are stupid. She looks down on others and that's going against the principle of Red Cross. That's wrong. She should change that. But that is not the revelation. That's just a thought she is toying with but most likely would not follow. This is the revelation:
She needs improvement.
The writer needs to write better. She needs to care more. She wants to.
She must be meticulous.
Unrelated note from the writer:
It's in two years. In two years I'll leave you. You'll feel hurt and I will too but it's for the best. Perhaps putting some distance between ourselves will do us good. It's for the best really.
Note: Add oil for YOUR exams. Keep your goals in sight.
The collective scribbling and page flipping when the teachers give us extra information.
And their eyes met as she uttered carpe diem.
And that threw me back two
this was posted on September 13, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Little darling, it's been a long, cold, lonely winter.I feel like singing:D
Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here.
Here comes the Sun, here comes the Sun,
and I say it's alright.
Oh I can't wait for Monday.
There're accreditations and Novena.
Oh I can't wait for Tuesday.
Oh wait. Actually I can.
Oh I can't wait for Wednesday.
Oh I can't wait for Thursday.
Or Friday.
But I look forward to the weekends the most. :DDDDD
oh I'm so happy with my combined humans..
It's so huggable.
:D
STUPID OPTIMIST. LET'S SHOOT YOU DOWN.
:O Oh! But why? We bring hope and sunshine!
FALSE HOPES! YOU LIE!
We wanted to make you feel better:(
You made it worse.
Thankfully school starts at 9.30am tomorrow.
: /
this was posted on September 12, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Qian Wennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
I want to study with you : /
I want to study with you : /
hiatus over
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I must be cruel to be kind.
To myself and the others. It'll pay off tenfold.
Hopefully.
: /
To myself and the others. It'll pay off tenfold.
Hopefully.
: /
Hiatus
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For two days to brush up on Physics and Chemistry.
Goodbye.
Goodbye.
Hungry
this was posted on September 11, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
The unichannel's tag board is being filled by different people with very different ideas. I like that.
:]
Undisclosed
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I want to reconcile the violence in your heart,
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask,
I want to exorcise the demons of your past,
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart.
I know what I want to do, I know how I can do it, I know why I should do it, and I know where I can do it.
But you don't allow me to and that restricts me. Never mind, I'll adapt. I am after all, a living breathing thing that reacts to changes- albeit reluctantly sometimes.
So much loneliness met so suddenly in such an unlikely place. And conversations sprung up. Ooh now I'll feel like babbling every time I come online. You learn so many things from people so different. But it's obvious we all like to talk about ourselves.
X)
Scrabble
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He lived with this festering inside of himself, eating his heart away. For it was not like "divine love", which is a pretty impersonal affection for humanity in general.
This was the doomed, obsessive, pathological kind.
It's nice how Spidey has this Spidey sense thing. It makes him feminine.
: /
Let's post about an outrageous topic that will get the pots and rooster clucking.
If David is a nihillist and Kyx is a hedonist, wouldn't they be the negative and positive
Opposites attract.
:]
Tingles
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It's weird knowing that the onslaught of pots and pans in this blog means that I have to write with more discretion. A single phrase might be scrutinized and debated against(That's just me flattering myself). OH blabshoubawocky.
I DON'T WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL:(
But no one listens.
You should all dig your ears.
Ahahaha.
this was posted on September 10, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Ahahahaha.
It's over.
X)
It's over.
X)
Rush
this was posted on September 4, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Short short post.
Past one month have been spent in prep. of FAC. For this day. It was a good learning experience. Got to meet people:] A little disappointed. Getting top three will help in our EUA. But we got a second runner up for North district. Everyone's hard work must be acknowledged however. We'll improve and do better next year! I'll be interviewing people for feedback okay?
Yeah.
The past two days have been spent between FAC and the concert for the PRC people at SP. Coming back at 11pm after shuttling between both ccas left me drained. But seeing how the concert and FAC ended up, it was worth it really.
It seems that every unit has their own internal conflict. Reading about them makes me really sad. But that's life isn't it? They'll always be a black in reverse of a white. We'll all know at least one person with a contrasting character and they'll always be discord. And that's sad. Because we can all really just be friends.
OMG TIMES BOOK SALE IN BISHAN TOMORROW. ALL BOOKS ARE GOING AT $2. I'M SO EXCITED!
Past one month have been spent in prep. of FAC. For this day. It was a good learning experience. Got to meet people:] A little disappointed. Getting top three will help in our EUA. But we got a second runner up for North district. Everyone's hard work must be acknowledged however. We'll improve and do better next year! I'll be interviewing people for feedback okay?
Yeah.
The past two days have been spent between FAC and the concert for the PRC people at SP. Coming back at 11pm after shuttling between both ccas left me drained. But seeing how the concert and FAC ended up, it was worth it really.
It seems that every unit has their own internal conflict. Reading about them makes me really sad. But that's life isn't it? They'll always be a black in reverse of a white. We'll all know at least one person with a contrasting character and they'll always be discord. And that's sad. Because we can all really just be friends.
OMG TIMES BOOK SALE IN BISHAN TOMORROW. ALL BOOKS ARE GOING AT $2. I'M SO EXCITED!
Write about an incident where your principle was challenged but you didn't succumb.
this was posted on August 30, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
The year was 2080 and the Earth had undergone a drastic change. With overconsumption and the collapse of major governments, the world had turned into an anarchic society. A new breed of human different from the docile, civilized beings of past years was spawned. We stalked the streets, solitary hunters, hungry for prey. Our only principle was to kill or get killed. That was an unchangeable law that we abided by and relished. I was an ardent killer but my principle was challenged the day I met him.
Varying shades of purple and black painted the sky and the crescent moon shone dimly as I prowled the deserted warehouses near the docks. "Creak". The sound rang across the silence and I moved with the shadows towards it. I smelled the old man before I saw him - the smell of a past age where lavender soaps scented your skin and cigars were smoked. The whift of nostalgia struck me dumb and I stood frozen in my tracks as the old man turned to face me with a quiet, reassuring smile on his face. Memories played across my mind as he started to talk.
He spoke of a revolution up North, where people were still civilized and fighting to survive. He implored me to join the revolution. "This dystopia that we live in... It does not have to be forever." His words echoed in my mind, leaving me shrouded in uncertainty. "Look into the mirror over there. What do you see?" The old man took my hand and we stared into the mirror together. He was standing upright, a serene look upon his face and yet I, a thirty-four year old was hunched up with the weight of the guilt and fear that I live with.
"Do you not remember the old days? Before the riots and bombings started, there was life and joy." Lost images of drinking hot soup with my family and swimming in the lake with my friends played like a sepia coloured movie in my mind. Drowned in the flood of remembrance, I wept like a child for the past. Where were my family and friends now? I know they had been killed. Our prerogative was to kill or get killed. They failed there and I would not succumb like they did. I howled and pounced on the old man, grinning at the crack of broken bones. "Will darkness overrun as light fades?" The old man uttered, horrified as I bit into his arm. The golden sun rose at dawn and in the morning light, true to my principle, I devoured him.
The End.
I wonder if you guys notice the end. Will darkness overrun as light fades. The golden sun rose at dawn(a.k.a. light) and even in the light, I(the monster) was still ever powerful, I devoured the old man.
I wanted something less ordinary for this composition so I twisted it.
I got a 26/30 for this. The bolded words are the mistakes.
There were comments for the essay:
"Beautiful."
"Mistress of short stories."
Miss Chia was exaggerating.
Note: My class really demeans me. Seeing them correct my grammar and vocab. was hilarious. Please, don't act like you know everything when you don't ("talking about yourself issit?" Is the common rebuttal. Yah, I am. cannot meh?).
Okay I said that in a moment of pique. You're all really nice people. I'm the unreasonable one.
Untainted
this was posted on August 29, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
It's so obvious; so unsurprising! ARGH. It's wrong and I did it. Stupid move bee.
It's dirty and it's wrong. Nothing good will come from this.
It gives me pleasure. It's a stress-reliever.
It gave you more trouble in the end.
Yeah, it did.
So should you continue? Do you remember your goal? Do you know what it takes to get that far? Does 'this' help you in any way?
No, it doesn't.
So?
I'm stopping. It's not worth it. I'll erase it from my memory, dismiss it to the dark recesses of my brain.
I'll label it "Trivial Non-necessities - Rubbish" .
I'll change my life, this superhero bee.
I know why.
Fucking idiots. WHY.
Fucking idiots. WHY.
30 Day Book Challenge
this was posted on August 26, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Day 01-Your favorite Book
Day 02-Least Favorite Book
Day 03-A Book that completely surprised you (bad/good)
Day 04- A Book that reminds you of home
Day 05- A Non-fiction book that you actually enjoyed
Day 06- A Book that makes you cry
Day 07- A Book that’s hard to read
Day 08- An unpopular book you believe should be a Best-Seller
Day 09- A Book you’ve read more than once
Day 10- The first novel you remember reading
Day 11- The Book that made you fall in love with reading
Day 12- A book so emotionally draining you couldn’t complete it or had to set aside for a bit
Day 13- Favorite childhood book
Day 14- Book that should be on hs/college required reading list
Day 15- Favorite book dealing with foreign culture
Day 16- Favorite book turned movie
Day 17- Book turned movie and completely desecrated
Day 18- A Book You can’t find on shelves anymore that you love
Day 19- A Book that changed your mind about a particular subject (non-fiction)
Day 20-A Book you would recommend to an ignorant/racist/closed minded person
Day 21-A guilty pleasure book
Day 22-Favorite Series (Edit)
Day 23- Favorite Romance Novel
Day 24 - A Book you later found out the Author lied about
Day 25-Favorite Autobiographical/Biographical book
Day 26-A Book you wish would be written
Day 27- A Book you would write if you had all the resources
Day 28- A Book you wish you never read
Day 29- An Author that you completely avoid/hate wont read
Day 30 - An Author that you will read whatever they put out
My 30 day Letter Challenge phail. I WONDER WHY I'M STARTING A NEW CHALLENGE 0.0
Day 1- My favourite book
Oooh. Hard one.
I'll probably change my mind sooner or later. There are still books waiting to be read. Their spines tingling in anticipation on the shelves of some library or bookstore somewhere.
Oooh.
I take a sweeping glance at my books.
Hmmm.
I believe my favourite book today(and perhaps for the next few months), will be
Nobel prize-winning author, William Golding's Lord of the Flies.
I'm not going to do a review or anything. So go to wiki if you need more info.
This book is my favourite because...
I get the 'squeeze, squeeze, squeeze' heart-wrenching-ness that I normally get with a good book. The kind that will give me an emotional hangover.
What is 'the kind' you ask?
Well 'the kind' includes all books by Wilde, Orwell, Plath and Woolf.
>.<
Those books that delve into our deep insides. To the very core of us. Books that examine the intricate workings of society. Books that unravel the mysteries of life.
The Lord of the Flies was the most recent book I've read of 'the kind' so it left a lasting impression.
Thus as long as it lingers in my mind- until I read the book of 'the kind', it will remain my favourite by far.
:)
Yay! Day 1's done.
Ooh.
Let's continue with the 30 day letter challenge!(On FB)
:D
I open the newspapers
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And see a whole lot of sad sad news.
Sigh.
The devil in us.
A fanfiction a day keeps boredom at bay.
I get all mushy inside when I read HP fanfics.
It's sad knowing that these people,
Are just characters in a book.
:(
Sigh.
The devil in us.
A fanfiction a day keeps boredom at bay.
I get all mushy inside when I read HP fanfics.
It's sad knowing that these people,
Are just characters in a book.
:(
I think of YOG, I think of the athletes, I think of the sacrifices they have made and the many things they've gained.
And I cry with pride.
YOG
this was posted on August 24, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
YOG.
Words can't describe.
(a.k.a. I'm lazy; you'll have to find out yourself)
I wanna eat raw fish.
Words can't describe.
(a.k.a. I'm lazy; you'll have to find out yourself)
I wanna eat raw fish.
Hunter's Camp
this was posted on August 23, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
I'm back with some shitty post again.
We all want to do well.
We all have our own problems.
Wth. What can we do?
You can only depend on yourself to pick yourself up again.
Friends are only there to encourage.
That's all.
But friends are not anti-irritant. They contribute to my problems too.
Who cares if they see this.
Wait.
Actually, it's some friends. Not all.
YOG gave me an opportunity. An opportunity to analyze different people. A boy sitting beside me did a phail attempt at rebellion yesterday. I saw groups of Rafflesians, Hwachies and Acsians yesterday. I wonder if any of them knew that they were sitting just rows away from each other.
We all want to do well.
We all have our own problems.
Wth. What can we do?
You can only depend on yourself to pick yourself up again.
Friends are only there to encourage.
That's all.
But friends are not anti-irritant. They contribute to my problems too.
Who cares if they see this.
Wait.
Actually, it's some friends. Not all.
YOG gave me an opportunity. An opportunity to analyze different people. A boy sitting beside me did a phail attempt at rebellion yesterday. I saw groups of Rafflesians, Hwachies and Acsians yesterday. I wonder if any of them knew that they were sitting just rows away from each other.
The tides are changing
this was posted on August 18, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Regina Spektor – Samson
The world is changing.
I am too.
Oh how time has passed.
How people have changed.
Am so glad he understood.
Oh love.
Stop the mushy fluffiness.
It creeps me out.
Bleh.
Oh man.
When you say Orwell, I think Wilde.
Virginia Woolf is next on my list~
Cause the way it unfolds is yet to be told
this was posted on August 15, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
But if you ask me
The feeling that I'm feeling is overwhelming
And oh, it goes to show
I've so much to know
- Prettiest Friend, Jason Mraz
I was walking to Seemiang's house when I thought of a few theories. I would like to call them passionate, sympathetic contemplations :] Some might disagree with what I'm going to say but well that's your opinion. To me, every theory is correct to those who believe they are.
Realisation:
Life has an S.I. unit. That's time. Life's S.I. unit is an s.
Realisation #2:
Success is defined in different terms.
Realisation #3:
Every convo. we have usually end with the same last line. "We should start studying."
Realisation #4:
Avoiding the topic gets you nowhere.
Theory #1: There's no such thing as unintentionally.
You might knock into a person because you weren't paying attention but that action was still intentional. You could have chosen not to dream and yet you did and thus it resulted in you knocking into someone. We lament that life is unfair. We are actually being unfair to ourselves. We make the decisions and they each snowballed into a consequence.
Each decision was affected by our thought, situation. They were made with certainty, intentionally.
Theory #2: I will never know how you'll sound like if you don't speak.
Likewise I will never know what will happen if I don't do it.
Just try.
Theory #3: We live life daily.
Walking on the pavement, I realised that hey it's like I'm walking through life( I am). The pavement was a road already paved for us before we were born. It was one straight road ahead but somewhere along time, obstacles were thrust in in the form of steps, cyclists, other pedestrians, trees... And the ever confusing traffic junction. Which road should we choose to go through? The road less traveled? Or the one well-worn with imprinted footsteps?
It does not matter.
The choices we make, they lead us to different paths and different lives.
There is no good or bad choice. Every choice has its own pros and cons. We should not leave room for regrets. We should accept and learn from the choices made.
The road chosen just confirms the path your life will lead that's all. It might be rocky and plagued with turbulence or smooth and rich like marble but ultimately, we'll all end up at the same place.
Either way, no road is completely smooth. Everyone has to suffer hardships now and then. It's just up to us to recover from them. Stronger. Wiser.
Well that's the end. Seemiang says that she's afraid her theories won't make sense. Do mine? Sometimes those who make no sense actually make the most sense of all:] (Nah. I'm just being thick-skinned.)
The feeling that I'm feeling is overwhelming
And oh, it goes to show
I've so much to know
- Prettiest Friend, Jason Mraz
I was walking to Seemiang's house when I thought of a few theories. I would like to call them passionate, sympathetic contemplations :] Some might disagree with what I'm going to say but well that's your opinion. To me, every theory is correct to those who believe they are.
Realisation:
Life has an S.I. unit. That's time. Life's S.I. unit is an s.
Realisation #2:
Success is defined in different terms.
Realisation #3:
Every convo. we have usually end with the same last line. "We should start studying."
Realisation #4:
Avoiding the topic gets you nowhere.
Theory #1: There's no such thing as unintentionally.
You might knock into a person because you weren't paying attention but that action was still intentional. You could have chosen not to dream and yet you did and thus it resulted in you knocking into someone. We lament that life is unfair. We are actually being unfair to ourselves. We make the decisions and they each snowballed into a consequence.
Each decision was affected by our thought, situation. They were made with certainty, intentionally.
Theory #2: I will never know how you'll sound like if you don't speak.
Likewise I will never know what will happen if I don't do it.
Just try.
Theory #3: We live life daily.
Walking on the pavement, I realised that hey it's like I'm walking through life( I am). The pavement was a road already paved for us before we were born. It was one straight road ahead but somewhere along time, obstacles were thrust in in the form of steps, cyclists, other pedestrians, trees... And the ever confusing traffic junction. Which road should we choose to go through? The road less traveled? Or the one well-worn with imprinted footsteps?
It does not matter.
The choices we make, they lead us to different paths and different lives.
There is no good or bad choice. Every choice has its own pros and cons. We should not leave room for regrets. We should accept and learn from the choices made.
The road chosen just confirms the path your life will lead that's all. It might be rocky and plagued with turbulence or smooth and rich like marble but ultimately, we'll all end up at the same place.
Either way, no road is completely smooth. Everyone has to suffer hardships now and then. It's just up to us to recover from them. Stronger. Wiser.
Well that's the end. Seemiang says that she's afraid her theories won't make sense. Do mine? Sometimes those who make no sense actually make the most sense of all:] (Nah. I'm just being thick-skinned.)
Oh shit
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It's so awkward XP
Go away. Go away. Go away.
AH! TWO YEARS?!?
I know how you feel now Yuri :(
A Walk to Remember
this was posted on August 11, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Mrs Goh is right.
Note the 'is'.
I can still change the future!
I won't go down like that.
I'm not perfect
this was posted on August 9, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
I've decided to move at my own pace.
I WILL SURVIVE.
ALLELUIA!
I WILL SURVIVE.
YAY.
I WILL SURVIVE.
ALLELUIA!
I WILL SURVIVE.
YAY.
Happy National Day:)
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Ah...this National Day is full of nostalgia. It's nice that some things are preserved but they might not be around for long. That's sad :(
Well...
Gone with the old and welcome the new.
Our country is being re-shaped with every new change.
It's a new era.
But it'll be nice if memories could be preserved.
Memories that'll bring a smile or a tear.
Heart-warming memories...
:)
This four days must be bliss for students. Don't you feel refreshed and more relaxed? It's better than the June holidays I feel. It's less packed and I have more time to catch up on my studies at my own pace. Bliss.
With hope,
Bee:)
Life run
this was posted on August 4, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Hi.
How's life?
Just felt that I had to post something.
Much love
Bee.
How's life?
Just felt that I had to post something.
Much love
Bee.
prettiest friend
this was posted on July 29, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Oral was mightily fine. A MATH WAS A KILLER. CAUSE I DIDN'T STUDY:( MY LIFE WAS GOING OFFRAIL. BUT IT'S OKAY NOW:) BECAUSE I GOT IT BACK ON TRACK:D Time flies. It's August in a second...
I eat mice for breakfast
this was posted on July 28, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
We're just skins and bones and masses of meat. It's not difficult to imagine a day in the perhaps not so far of future, where dystopia reigns. I mean, it has happened before right? In the 1940s. Just a mere 70 years ago. We are complacent. We are falling back. We're getting no further than we were before.
Read 1984.
Battle Royale.
Hunger Games.
Etc.
What do they foretell? A world where killing is necessary. It's a fight for your life. You'll either kill or get killed.
Brutal bloodfest. Oh my gosh. I'm creeping myself out. Hey, life isn't as innocent as we suspect. Death isn't the end. Oh my gosh, I'm really creeping myself out. Dangers lurk.
We had better be prepared.
Oh my gosh, I'm seriously scaring me.
Read 1984.
Battle Royale.
Hunger Games.
Etc.
What do they foretell? A world where killing is necessary. It's a fight for your life. You'll either kill or get killed.
Brutal bloodfest. Oh my gosh. I'm creeping myself out. Hey, life isn't as innocent as we suspect. Death isn't the end. Oh my gosh, I'm really creeping myself out. Dangers lurk.
We had better be prepared.
Oh my gosh, I'm seriously scaring me.
Choices
this was posted on July 25, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Are you confused?
I am.
I'll surrender myself to the wind and let the wind decide.
It's the easiest way out.
I am.
I'll surrender myself to the wind and let the wind decide.
It's the easiest way out.
If it's love
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For. Ever.
:)
Go study Bee:)
If I'm addicted to loving you...
Red Cross! Woohoo!
:)
Go study Bee:)
If I'm addicted to loving you...
Red Cross! Woohoo!
Teenage Dream
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I know you get me
So I let my walls come down, down...
Do you really know me?
It's hard to find someone that really does.
We have the same interests.
So what?
It's hard to be open if no one understands.
So I let my walls come down, down...
Do you really know me?
It's hard to find someone that really does.
We have the same interests.
So what?
It's hard to be open if no one understands.
If we ever meet again
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I really hate people sometimes.
They are...
So rude
So inconsiderate
So unfeeling
So inhumane
So disgraceful
So pretentious
So judging
There's a thin line separating the good from the bad.
And yet, there are times where they are
So considerate
So affectionate
So sympathetic
So generous
So open
So...human
I relish times like that.
They are...
So rude
So inconsiderate
So unfeeling
So inhumane
So disgraceful
So pretentious
So judging
There's a thin line separating the good from the bad.
And yet, there are times where they are
So considerate
So affectionate
So sympathetic
So generous
So open
So...human
I relish times like that.
Love the way you lie
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Non-Red-crossers will never feel the RC love~
this was posted on July 23, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Woohoo! One up in rank.
With hope
this was posted on July 22, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Let the revival begin.
With much hope,
it started today.
I could have.
With much hope,
it started today.
I could have.
Atonement
this was posted on July 19, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
U2
'One'
Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you now
You got someone to blame
You say...
One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it
Did I disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's...
Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One...
Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it's all I got We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt
One love
One blood
One life You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One...life
One
Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you now
You got someone to blame
You say...
One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it
Did I disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's...
Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One...
Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it's all I got We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt
One love
One blood
One life You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One...life
One
Dictionary
this was posted on July 18, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
AH.
Ignore previous posts. I read through them and spotted a lot of grammatical errors. AH.
I was infantile! AH.
The same thing's going to happen in six months right? -_-
Ignore previous posts. I read through them and spotted a lot of grammatical errors. AH.
I was infantile! AH.
The same thing's going to happen in six months right? -_-
Dear stalkers,
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Ignore all previous post stop Did not think while typing stop Listen only to posts from this day on stop I can do better than this stop
I
Want
To
Sleep
Stop
I
Want
To
Sleep
Stop
this was posted on July 17, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Frig emo.
SMILE B, SMILE : D D D DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
SMILE B, SMILE : D D D DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
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We passed ULP!
We survived ULP!
It's a once in a lifetime, never to be experience again, ...experience.
Wow.
It's like the past yesterdays. They'll never happen again, we'll never re-experience anything exactly like it again.
Wow.
Time flies like little winged cheetahs.
We survived ULP!
It's a once in a lifetime, never to be experience again, ...experience.
Wow.
It's like the past yesterdays. They'll never happen again, we'll never re-experience anything exactly like it again.
Wow.
Time flies like little winged cheetahs.
Belle Noir
this was posted on July 13, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Getting influenced.
Too much.
I looked into the mirror today.
What did I see?
I saw a girl.
And she saw me.
But wait.
Maybe too much is a good thing:)
I feel like...
Confessing.
But it'll only cause much awkwardness.
I have decided to apply for DSA.
Gears are turning,
Plans being made.
I won't deny that they have motivated me.
: D Thank you.
I PASSED EVAC SILVER!
I HAVE SOME NEW IDEAS FOR THE UNIT!
CAN'T WAIT FOR PROMOTION CEREMONY!
I'm Writer.
Do you know?
No.
You don't.
That's sad.
I like suan-ning people.
Don't you know?
I suppose you do.
Still, I'm still
Unknown.
Anonymous.
I'm just Writer to you.
It's nice being anonymous :D
11/09/2010: THIS IS TO THE AK-47 PEOPLE.
It's nice being anonymous :D
11/09/2010: THIS IS TO THE AK-47 PEOPLE.
look into the mirror
this was posted on July 12, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Seriously! It's confirmed! I'm so applying and I'm so getting in XD
I didn't know! I couldn't imagine it! But it happened!
I didn't know! I couldn't imagine it! But it happened!
Ha.
this was posted on July 11, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
Haha. I pwn.
RIRC's PN was gaga-istic.
RIRC's PN was gaga-istic.
this was posted on July 7, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
The world is real. It's all play and complacency now. It's not for. ever.
“It is an illusion that youth is happy, an illusion of those who have lost it; but the young know they are wretched for they are full of the truthless ideal which have been instilled into them, and each time they come in contact with the real, they are bruised and wounded. It looks as if they were victims of a conspiracy; for the books they read, ideal by the necessity of selection, and the conversation of their elders, who look back upon the past through a rosy haze of forgetfulness, prepare them for an unreal life. They must discover for themselves that all they have read and all they have been told are lies, lies, lies; and each discovery is another nail driven into the body on the cross of”
“It is an illusion that youth is happy, an illusion of those who have lost it; but the young know they are wretched for they are full of the truthless ideal which have been instilled into them, and each time they come in contact with the real, they are bruised and wounded. It looks as if they were victims of a conspiracy; for the books they read, ideal by the necessity of selection, and the conversation of their elders, who look back upon the past through a rosy haze of forgetfulness, prepare them for an unreal life. They must discover for themselves that all they have read and all they have been told are lies, lies, lies; and each discovery is another nail driven into the body on the cross of”
| — | -W. Somerset Maugham (Of Human Bondage) |
The 30 Day Letter Challenge
this was posted on July 5, 2010 by reallyaliveandnotjustbreathing. | ⋄❤
30 Day Letter Challenge:
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Boy is this private :P Try not to spread yeah?
Day2 - My Crush
05/07/2010
It's a holiday today. I bookmarked some ebooks and wrote down new epigrams in my anthology I notebook. I'm finishing my homework now. I wouldn't want to fall back on my work again. I know I've said this many times before but this time, I swear it's serious. The O'levels are real and approaching. My gosh, everyone is talking about prelims and the upcoming Chinese 'O's. Expect the unexpected. Yet I'm still surprise. You're getting nearer each day. Time is running out. Would I ever lower my L1R5 enough to embrace you? This time it's serious and my dearest Raffles, this EOY results will define everything. My DSA success depends on it. Can I pull up my results to an A1?
I'll be visiting your campus this Saturday:D How I rejoice at meeting you! Do you recall, the times I drove past with my camera in hand, snap snap snapping photos for motivation? Those Tuesdays nights where I walked around that swimming pool where my friends had their swimming lessons? I yearn for you but I feel trepidation. The other students seem so intellectual...What am I compared to them? I don't know what to feel RI... but for you, I'll persevere! Can I even get in without HCL?
DSA is my only choice and my results and extra-curricular activities play a defining role in this. B, be consistent in your work. Note down Chinese phrases. Read on a wide range of subjects. Write more! Practise math sums, and more math sums. Read Bio essays, apply Physics into your daily life, continuously add on to your list of chemistry equations, read the newspapers, arrange your notes and write notes in advance. Listen in class and add on to your notes. Do your homework before anything else. Read your notes after doing your homework. Do that everyday! Read your notes before starting on other study-related revision. My future lies in my hands.
Watch out R, I'll see you in a year!
:)
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Boy is this private :P Try not to spread yeah?
Day2 - My Crush
05/07/2010
It's a holiday today. I bookmarked some ebooks and wrote down new epigrams in my anthology I notebook. I'm finishing my homework now. I wouldn't want to fall back on my work again. I know I've said this many times before but this time, I swear it's serious. The O'levels are real and approaching. My gosh, everyone is talking about prelims and the upcoming Chinese 'O's. Expect the unexpected. Yet I'm still surprise. You're getting nearer each day. Time is running out. Would I ever lower my L1R5 enough to embrace you? This time it's serious and my dearest Raffles, this EOY results will define everything. My DSA success depends on it. Can I pull up my results to an A1?
I'll be visiting your campus this Saturday:D How I rejoice at meeting you! Do you recall, the times I drove past with my camera in hand, snap snap snapping photos for motivation? Those Tuesdays nights where I walked around that swimming pool where my friends had their swimming lessons? I yearn for you but I feel trepidation. The other students seem so intellectual...What am I compared to them? I don't know what to feel RI... but for you, I'll persevere! Can I even get in without HCL?
DSA is my only choice and my results and extra-curricular activities play a defining role in this. B, be consistent in your work. Note down Chinese phrases. Read on a wide range of subjects. Write more! Practise math sums, and more math sums. Read Bio essays, apply Physics into your daily life, continuously add on to your list of chemistry equations, read the newspapers, arrange your notes and write notes in advance. Listen in class and add on to your notes. Do your homework before anything else. Read your notes after doing your homework. Do that everyday! Read your notes before starting on other study-related revision. My future lies in my hands.
Watch out R, I'll see you in a year!
:)